What I want to focus on however, is how thankful I am. I'm thankful for the seven years you were a part of my life and the impact you made on me that will never fade. I'm thankful that I got to meet the little sister I never had growing up. With that, I'm thankful for all of the challenges we lived through in our friendship because I think that was part of why I think of you as a sister. Our relationship wasn't perfect but I loved you unconditionally and would have done anything for you. I'm thankful for each and every memory I have of you and how precious those are to me.
I remember meeting you and having this instant connection, almost like we were supposed to be friends. I remember the summer we lived together and all of our nights at Evelyn's and the Cowesett Inn. I remember coming home to visit when I lived in North Carolina and you being a huge part of what convinced me to move back to Boston. I remember the Thanksgiving dinner party you threw four years ago and the overwhelming feeling of joy I felt that day. I remember going out on Saint Patrick's Day and both of us realizing that we were so much older than we thought. I remember the last time I spoke to you, and despite how sick you were, I could tell how good you were doing. You had just moved into your new apartment and I was so happy for you. I can wish a thousand times over that I had tried harder to convince you to come out that night, despite illness, so that I could have seen you one more time but wishing won't change that. Instead, I'm going to choose be grateful that I got to talk to you that night and in our last conversation, I knew how well you were doing and that you were happy.
While I still miss you more than anything, I'm choosing to focus on the seven years we had together, instead of three since you've been gone. I know you're here with me all the time and thinking of you is such a huge inspiration whenever I'm facing a challenge. For that, I want to thank you. Without even knowing it, you've pushed me to achieve things I never thought I could. I love you so much and you hold a place in my heart forever. XoXo